Laying here, in a pile of notebooks (literally a pile of them), with my baby doggies laying in the middle of the bed, as I try to claim a corner for myself, and writing emails to clients at nearly 1 in the morning, I got to thinking.
I know I shouldn't bring my laptop and work into my bed... but I do.
I know I shouldn't let the dogs sleep in my bed... but I do.
I know I shouldn't be working so late at night... but I do.
I know I shouldn't eat dinner at 9 at night... but I do.
I know I shouldn't put my phone on silent so often... but oh my I sure do.
I know I shouldn't resist my own greatness... but sometimes I do.
I know I shouldn't skip brushing my teeth before bed... but once in awhile I do.
I know I shouldn't buy bottled water and use plastic bags... but I (sadly) do.
I know I shouldn't take cabs when I can take the train... but I do.
I know I shouldn't walk a crazy long route to get somewhere when I get take the train... but I do.
I know I shouldn't look at your instagram... but I sometimes still do.
I know I shouldn't worry about you, especially when you send emails like today ahem... but I do.
I know I shouldn't coddle my puppybabies and hand feed Henry... but I sure as heck do.
I know I shouldn't get so nervous to meet the people in your life... but I do.
I know I shouldn't get on a distraction train called the internet... but I do.
I know I shouldn't analyze what to do with my hair next all the time... but I delightfully do.
I know I shouldn't let the tv be on in the background when I'm working... but sometimes I do.
I know I shouldn't be blogging when I should be sleeping... but I do.
And I know I shouldn't believe in shoulds and shouldn'ts... and I don't ;)
This post has been brought to you by the letter P, for Procrastination. and Puppies. and Pie. because who doesn't like pie?
Happy Friday, friends!
cuuuuute post! i love it, kerry! i have a lot of these in my own life. ;)
ReplyDeletehappy weekend!
I can't even tell you how many of these made me nod and say, "oh me too." (Says the girl blog commenting at 12:15am still with a full belly from the late-dinner lasagna.) I had this amazing day once, about 2 months ago, when I just felt so GOOD. And I couldn't put my finger on why I felt so GOOD, and then I realized that, for whatever reason, I wasn't giving myself a hard time about anything that day. I wasn't mentally checking off my time/activities/etc as good or bad, right or wrong. I was simply just BEING. I simply slept in a little too late, I simply was a little lazy and watched TV for a couple hours, I simply made a phone call to a friend instead of applying to jobs. I was simply BEING without evaluating bad habits, poor choices, wastes of time, etc. It was the most wonderful feeling and I wished I could feel it every single day. Not saying "today was a good/bad day" or "I was good/bad day" but just learning to say...."Today was a day. Today was Tuesday. Tomorrow will be Wednesday. And that's all." When I figure out how to achieve this magical (unicorn) zen at all times...I will let you know :)
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